I dont know about you, but I have a mind that loves to think. It seems to adore analyzing, figuring out, trying to come up with all of the details, the particulars, so it can come to a smart conclusion. Untamed and unleashed, it goes all over the place, and I go crazy in hot pursuit. Quieting my mind was an amazing accomplishment. First of all, I had no idea that I even had such a busy mind... addicted to thinking and searching for data. Learning to feel for my answers, instead of labor-intensive hard thinking, was a novel approach. What? No long, drawn-out internal planning sessions? No sorting or concocting? Whats a mind supposed to do? Being in feel... you are so present and connected. The answer comes without the pushing, pulling, agonizing and effort. Being in the now, it is clear what to do next. But you do have to step aside and allow what wants to come through to present itself. What if you had complete faith and confidence that everything would work out? What if your conviction and belief was so strong, that you knew everything would always be alright, even when on the surface it may not seem like it? What would your life look like with unshakable faith? What then? There is an issue of security and trust for me in wanting to cover all of my bases before I move. Funnily enough, when I am playing a game and I know that I am playing a game, I lighten up, I go with the flow, instinctively making the right moves. When it comes to life, a certain seriousness can creep in. I mean, I am an adult for heavens sake. Isnt life now supposed to be serious? This is serious business. You cant just go with the flow? What if its the wrong move? What if you make the wrong choice? What if something bad happens? Hey, what if something good happens? I get in my own way sometimes, because there is doubt, there is uncertainty and I am scrambling for enlightenment from an outside source. It may seem like there is an outside source, but there is not. You are it! It is probably rare, that a child looks at a roller-coaster and wants blow by blow details to ensure their safety before they dare to get on the ride. They look at it and anticipate the thrill, the challenge and the excitement. No hesitation. They jump on. Its fun! They scream, laugh, scream some more and then they get on again... and again! What do we usually do as adults? We want every re-assurance that nothing bad is going to happen before we move. We want to know exactly what is going to transpire from the time we get on until the time we get off. Even then, we may not trust what we are hearing and refuse to try something out. Sometimes we create our own road-blocks. We create our own detours by getting in the way of what is ahead, of what is possible. When I was little, I remember the feeling that I had when I woke up with the delightful realization, that it was the first day of my summer holidays. Unadulterated joy! Three glorious months spread out before me. I was in heaven! I woke up, eager to start each day. Oh, to explore and create my day just the way I want. What more could I ask for? I was home. No school. I had a huge yard to delight in, a forbidden open field next door, things to make, adventures to go on... Life was grand! Do we wake up today to this same eager anticipation? Do we wake up to this same feeling of adventure, the playfulness of creating our days story just the way we want? It certainly is within our grasp to do that. Do we reach out and grab the opportunities, or are we hanging back, sheltered in the safety zone? Step aside and allow your life to come through in all of its beauty. It will if you let it. Life naturally wants to spring forth. It naturally wants to bubble over to amaze and delight you. Let it. I am always surprised and grateful at the ease , the effortlessness, the smooth flow of life when I allow it just to be. |
